endless loop

Some things which are gone should just stay gone. But when it comes back, it's back for more.. I wonder why, but the thing that I am going to describe is very disturbing to me.

Once, a matter I was very worried, but yet I kept mum, anticipating a prediction I made. 

It came true, and I thought the sky was clear again.

Then the dark clouds came, and the same feeling returned; the same worries.

But this time, at a higher intensity.

Have I been played a fool? Or am I in denial of a probable a repercussion,

smiling at myself and being so satisfied at the initial outcome.

But I'm not blind, I just thought there was hope.

But I'm not cruel, I just know..... an endless loop

No I'm not joking, these dejavu moments really very clear. I had 2 this week, it's like I saw this exact scene before. It just tells me that I will lose my car key and cannot do anything about it at all.

it's so easy

It is not difficult to lose weight. It's just a matter of want or dont want. I want when I want, I dont want when I dont want. Now I want, I will do it! (even if it's a loss of 500g is called weight loss LOL)

see one like one

I hope I'm not the type of guy who will see one girl like one girl.

Revenge

I'm a fan of stories of revenge. Been watching some movies of such these days, such pleasure. Yes I know about forgiveness, but I guess I may not be able to act on it, for I am only human- the same reason for someone who made an unforgivable mistake- only human. So since we are on level playing field, then it is up to God to pass the judgement, as to whether you are forgiven. And as to when the meeting can be organized, depends on the degree of sin, and therefore determined by the "forgiver", whether to expedite it.

Not pure

To think of not thinking about bad things, is already thinking about it directly.

Stranger Chat

Was scrolling Cydia for some nice apps when I came across Stranger Chat. Quite a neat concept, I feel. It's supposed to randomly link u to a stranger and u'll start chatting. So I guess there's nothing to lose, no identity will be exposed, so I can be like frank abagnale, impersonate anyone. But that's just a thought. So I decided to try it out.

1st conversation left without a start. 2nd said hi and conversation went on about locations and how's life there etc. Not long, the person asked "are u a girl?", I knew he's a guy looking for a stranger girl. So I said "nahh sorry to disappoint u." Guess what, he left the conversation immediately after that. Interesting. I guess I won't be playing Catch Me If You Can for awhile, meanwhile I'll still keep the app as a form of entertainment.